I never had a chance to say goodbye to my brother before he died, so I wasn't going to not have the opportunity to say goodbye. Over the past weeks he has gone from being scared and bitter about dying to the past few days at peace with the idea. Thats a lot for anyone to handle especially at his age. My fathers side of the family which I am no longer close to by any means has been around him off and on for the past weeks. Its sad how the only thing that brings that side of the family together is someone dying, and shortly afterwards we part our ways and wait for the next death.
Things that really pissed me off about the situation.
Noah is dying of what started off as lung cancer, eventually tumors started forming all over his body, including his brain and chest. Several "friends" and family members that have been around him the past weeks still smoke around him. His own mother was laying next to him in his death bed smoking a cigarette less than 4 inches away from his mouth. I can not fathom the lack of intelligence it takes to do that. Another one of his "friends" has been next to him off and on for the past several days chain smoking. Do people not understand that smoking is what started killing him to begin with?
We've been sitting around and waiting for him to take his final breath, its sad to say but we know his mind wants to let go and be out of his pain, but his body won't let go and his heart continues to beat. We all hope that his death will come sooner than later to ease the pain.
I guess we all have our ways of looking at things, especially death. I am a strong proponent of Euthanasia and wish only to end his suffering. Why isn't this an option? why does my cousin have to lay in bed wishing for a death to end his suffering and no one can help?
